Winter 2017 happened to be one of the most productive and introspective months of my …
I’m painting intensively since late 2016. I always wanted to be a painter, but the dream seemed too big to believe in.
Since I acquired the ability to hold a pencil I was creating images for at least few hours a day from 4:30 am until the adults found a better task for me to do, but still, I thought I am not an artist.
You can paint ‘for fun‘, in your ‘free time‘. ‘It will never bring you money!‘
‘You want to paint? I think you should be a writer’.
That’s some of the opinions I’ve heard when I suggested to my close ones that painting is what I want to do in my life.
It took me over 15 years before I came back to creating images, and I know I will never abandon my passion again. I work hard to catch up with the lost time – by painting, by looking and by thinking.
Observing the real world and the world of my dreams, playing perception development games in my head, training how I see things according to what I want to see – these are still my very favourite activities. I spend hours ‘just’ looking at the landscape which I find beautiful. It’s my
I spend hours ‘just’ looking at the landscape which I find beautiful. It’s my favourite form of meditation and oftentimes I feel like painting what I’ve seen. Below is one of the paintings I made after such experience at the Polish Baltic coast.
Oil on canvas 90x 60 cm
Painted spontaneously from memory after a weekend by the polish coast in May 2017.
Sometime in October 2016, in the middle of spending another hour in the office in a city jungle of Berlin Mitte, it dawned on me:
‘I AM A PAINTER. And I will do all that I can to become a great one.’
Since then I paint almost every day. I treat it as professionally and I can with a full commitment. I spend all my spare money on painting courses and the best quality materials I can afford.
When I don’t paint I dwell into the imaginary world in my head and feel the images. Or I silently observe the environment, landscapes, my thoughts, my feelings related to certain colours and my dreams. Even when I close my eyes I see images, colours, patterns, phantasy scenes like they want to escape after being hidden for all these years.
When I see the colours melting under my brush I am truly happy.
Below you can see a few of the many paintings I’ve done over the last months.
Oil on canvas 140x 100 cm
In July 2017 I sold my first painting, thank you, Rik, for trusting my skills and giving me my first professional assignment. Is it an ocean? Is it another planet? I don’t know. I just kept waving with my brush. Painting took over 30 hours. The hardest part was to balance the complicated bottom part with a calmer upper part. Loved it though!
Another reason why I started to paint again was discovering my color synesthesia. Every feeling, person, sound or a name has a specific colour association for me. When I discovered that is not a typical thing as I always thought I started to believe that what I feel while interacting with colours is unique.
It’s quite funny or sad that for many years I was not able to wear anything colourful as all the colours were screaming too loud for me. I still consider using certain colours in the urban environment as visual violence towards people like me, but let this be a topic for another post.
Oil on canvas 80×60 cm
A spontaneous, intuitive landscape painting, painted fast, over maybe an hour before I had the first coffee. These are usually my favourite type of paintings.
A KISS IN 2017
Memory of someone I felt in love into.
SUNSET AFTER A STORM
The most emotionally consuming painting I have ever done.
Acrylics 105x 70 cm
CHILDREN”S PLAY (censored version)
Oil 105×70 cm
A training life model painting at Berlin Drawing art school.
Oil on canvas 90×90
Oil on canvas 80×50 cm
Oil on canvas 80 x 50 cm
Oil on canvas 105 x 70 cm
My studio and works in progress
A little lake (Treptower Park)