Winter 2016/2017 this year was one of the most productive and introspective months of my …
I always wanted to be a painter, but the dream seemed too big to believe in it.
Since I acquired an ability to hold a pencil I was creating images at least few hours a day from 4 30 am until the adults found a better task for me to do.
You can paint ‘for fun‘, in your ‘free time‘. ‘It will never bring you money!‘, ‘You want to paint? I think you should be a writer’. That’s some of the opinions I’ve heard when I suggested to my close ones that painting is what I want to do.
It took me many years before I came back to creating images, and I know I will never abandon my love again.
Observing the real world and the world of my dreams, playing perception development games in my head, training how I see things according to what I want to see – these are still my very favourite activities.
Every feeling, person or a name has a specific colour association for me, which is called synesthesia. When I discovered that is not a typical thing as I always thought I started to believe that what I feel while interacting with colours is unique.
It’s quite funny or sad that for many years I was not able to wear anything colourful as all the colours were screaming too loud for me. I still consider using certain colours in the urban environment as visual violence towards people like me, but let this be a topic for another post.
Sometime in October 2016, in the middle of spending another hour in the office in a city jungle of Berlin Mitte, it dawned on me:
‘I AM A PAINTER. And I will do all that I can to become a great one.’
Since then I paint almost every day. I treat it as professionally and I can with a full commitment. I spend all my spare money on painting courses and the best quality materials I can afford.
When I don’t paint I dwell into the imaginary world in my head and feel the images. Or I silently observe the environment, landscapes, my thoughts, my feelings related to certain colours and my dreams. Even when I close my eyes I see images, colours, patterns, phantasy scenes like they want to escape after being hidden for all these years.
When I see the colours melting under my brush I am truly happy.
In July 2017 I sold my first painting, thank you, Rik, for trusting my skills and giving me my first professional assignment.
Below you can see a few of the many paintings I’ve done over the last months.
Oil on canvas 90x 60 cm
Painted spontaneously from memory after a weekend by the polish coast in May 2017.
Oil on canvas 140x 100 cm
My first sold painting and a personal assignment for Rik. Is it an ocean? Is it another planet? I don’t know. I just kept waving.
Oil on canvas 80×60 cm
A spontaneous, intuitive landscape painting, painted fast before the first coffee.
A KISS IN 2017
SUNSET AFTER A STORM
LANDSCAPE , Acrylics 105x 70 cm
CHILDREN”S PLAY (censored version)
Oil 105×70 cm
Oil on canvas 90×90, training painting at Berlin Drawing art school
A training life model painting at Berlin Drawing art school
July 2017 Oil on canvas 80×50 cm
Oil on canvas 80×50 cm